Why are we here

Where do you draw a line when it comes to giving in or giving it a bit more? What I mean is that you may put yourself in a position out of need and anxiousness and once you are there even if you hate it, should you try to convince yourself that you can make it good by your attitude or do you immediately try to find a escape route because you know staying there is going to slowly kill a youthful spark in you day after day. Lets apply it to a job position that you finally got and are able to just make enough to get through each month. You know what you do exercises no talents that you actually have except maybe a good work ethic and ability to shut your mouth about almost everything. On the other hand you know you have no way to pay the bills immediately without this job. You know you want to be able to do something more with your life then calculate your demise of retirement possibilities pay check to paycheck, but the fear of having nothing and no one stepping into help is REAL. Do you tell your spirit to take a back seat while your sell out worker persona takes the wheel? Do you train your gag reflex to be ignored by your body every time you have just finished shuckin and jivin with your boss about what a marvelous day it is and how you can't wait for the next opportunity to drive sales and become the brand? Or do you look for an escape route everyday to get the heck out and land where you would actually feel valued and worth a shared memory in life. Do you pursue your dream that makes everyone around you laugh and definitely not want to contribute to your success( most of the time cause no one gave a darn about their dreams). I know you have to have enough to exist, but what about enough to live. Existing is not living. You know you can offer more to the world and yourself then what minimum pay and hours and no exercise of your talents is allowing you to. A lot of us battle these questions and I don't know the ultimate answer for everyone, but I know I am reaching a point in life where I know if I sign into the complete company program and began trying to become the break room buff, I will eventually lose the part of me that takes chances, and wants to know what is behind door number 2. I don't want to start to forget to sing to my favorite song on the radio because I am still running down the checklist of my workday duties to make sure I did not forget to cross every T. I believe there is  way to find our writing on the wall of why we are here and do something about it. I believe we are made to be more then a resource to someone else's bottom line. I believe God gave us a spirit to individualize our destinies.